keep your guard up

Ever feel like u belong but u don’t belong 

Ever feel like really scared of losing friends constantly?

Ever feel like u just can’t take it anymore

Ever feel like a useless person

Ever feel like optimistic but pessimistic

Ever feel like things will be alright

It’s like you love too much

You value too much

That there comes a point when you realize the others don’t hold u in that same way

And u feel stupid for loving someone too much

U feel stupid for being too attached

And it’s even worse that it keeps happening over and over again

It’s as if you will never meet someone who loved u as much

And it’s sad

But it’s even sadder that u have to constantly remind yourself to not be too attached

To not love the people around u that much

To keep your distance

To hold back

To not say everything

To keep your guard up

Cause whenever it drops

You’ll feel stupid again