The question is can I stop?
Ik it will eventually happen
But we don’t stop living because we know death is coming
But we do things while living to prepare for death
Then, what things should I do to prepare for this?
Should I learn to be quiet?
Should I continue sharing?
Should I push away?
Or enjoy the last few moments?
Isn’t it less painful if I pull away instead of the other way around?
It’s less painful to me
Or is it?
I can’t see the pain in people
Especially if it’s something I did
But the question here is if Learned anything
They don’t care
They would hurt me and never look back
They would leave me and it hurts so bad
Sometimes it isn’t what someone did
It’s how it related to what happened before
I know this action
To pretend to be strangers
And I hate it
Why should it be so complicated
Can’t two people just be friends and stay friends?
Or maybe I am just one of those people who is meant to be friendless
Maybe that’s why nothing works out
I am not giving up
I will even slowly back away
It will be painful
It will be bad
But instead of them pulling away all the way suddenly and stabbing me
I’d rather slowly stab myself
I’d rather have time to speak to myself through it
Nothing is wrong with me
I was just born in with the wrong generation
Now the question is do I want to stop after all these conclusions?
