I am the Problem. I am meant to be lonely.

Friendship #1: We were kids, in KG to be particular. I obviously don't remember much except that I actually like her. She travels. Friendship is over.
Friendship #2: Again I am still a KG student. I didn't like this friend as much as I liked friend number one. I don't remember why or anything. I travel. Friendship is over.
Friendship #3: We moved to a new school, new city. It was really hard making a friend. Everyone seemed to be in their own little exclusive group. Yet somehow I became your friend. I don't remember much about our Friendship but you were in my graduating class and I have to say we were very different people. Friendship is over.
Friendship#4: We fought to be friends. It seems silly now. You already had a best friend but you didn't like her. We fight a little with your best friend until you are my best friend. This was actually one of my longest Friendships. about 3-4 years. Technically, When we talk now it's as if nothing has changed. But the world somehow separated us in Every single way. I am glad though that we can talk as if we were still Best Friends and all. I can't talk to you now though. You didn't talk to me. Friendship is over.
Friendship #5: Technically this friendship was happening at the same time friendships number 3 and 4 were happening. It also lasted very long. This time I can actually remember what went wrong. You wanted me to be all to yourself. I wasn't allowed to speak to anyone else. You always thought you were better. I mean who likes to feel like they are inferior? We occasionally wish each other Happy Birthday. But we again just went separate ways. Friendship is Over.
Friendship #6: So this is actually a group of people. It felt great to be within a group. We all went separate ways. I was particularly close to 2 people. The both traveled. I talked a couple of years to one of them. I was supposed to meet with the other. Funny how life is. Friendship is Over.
Friendship #7: Again a group of people. Felt great. Until well we lost a member. I was the next member that the group would lose.
Friendship#8: Magical number 8?Maybe. This was different. And as epic, as it was when it started, it was equally epic when it ended(or I am trying to end it, but my heart is not letting me.) To me, there is no more hope. Even if we still talk, it'll never feel the same. I kind of know what I want now a little better. You don't seem interested. I think it's worth mentioning how much I fought for you. This time I didn't fight with your ex-best friend, I was fighting with myself. Friendship is over. (I am sorry .part of this is not your fault and a part of it is. I wish we could be friends again)
Friendship #9: You are literally one of the most supportive people I ever met. But in a way Ik you are bad for me. I am bad for you. It was again epic but a different kind of epic. I am trying to end it but my heart is not letting me. I kind of know what I want and it's not what you want. I am not sure how to tell you. Again I wasn't fighting with anyone but myself. It was a different fight. It was a fight to be humane. to be fair. In friendship#7 I simply kept thinking how unfair it was to me. In friendship #8 I also kept thinking the same. It seems like you might see me the bad one in this story. But will you tell me? What will I do when you do? As much as I would want it to continue, Friendship is Over.
Friendship #10: I am not sure you belong on this list and in a way the previous friendship doesn't either. You are so great. But I never feel like we click. It's very mean of me to say but I mostly don't feel like I enjoy my time with you. We don't even understand each other. But you are so dear to my heart. We are more like sisters. I am not ready to let go of you. You are what makes our place home.
you did very much misunderstand me before that I never wanted to talk to you again. My heart is not letting me. I can't see us being what I wish to have. I won't say that our friendship is over because Maybe this will be so unexpected and it will be better than what I want.
Friendship #11: I shouldn't let you be #11. but well here you are. This is also a group. I felt very free with you people. But I just don't anymore.  Friendship is Over.

This post feels very gloomy. However, I am okay. It's all Okay. I don't blame anyone except well myself. Cause if I can't keep all those great people then the problem is def with me.
Somedays I am hopeless and some days I am not. I'll keep looking for that friend I wished for and the group of people that I actually belong in. But it feels like I need to fix myself first. Thing is I am not sure what to fix. I mean when I think about myself and try not to attack myself I think I am a decent person. (Regardless of how the last couple of days I kept thinking that it was all an illusion and I am actually a terrible person and everyone secretly hates me that why they suddenly just leave me alone cause they can't hide their hatred any longer. More on that in the Rant section below)I asked most of those friends what they didn't like about me, why everything ended and none of them said I was the problem. Maybe I am not. But one thing is sure, I need to stop attacking myself.  Maybe I am the friend I am looking for.

Rant:
So for some reason, I've had a couple of weeks of depressing and suicidal thoughts. I have to say I mean I am a happy person. Usually very cheerful. I have no reason to have had those thoughts. It was very weird listening to my brain saying the most random things. I hated everyone and it seemed like everyone hated me. I felt like a burden to life. Like I wasn't shouldn't be living. I felt like I felt in one of the friendships like everything I say is stupid and useless. It felt like a bubble about to explode all the time. It was all so weird that I was about to pray to die.
I didn't want to talk to the two friends I still have because I feel like voicing those thoughts out loud will make them real. Like I actually thought those things. I didn't want to believe I thought of things like that. I didn't want to attract attention. I talked to my all time best friend and she helped me so much until I felt hate towards her too. I hated everything.
I am really glad that somehow all this is over. It just went away. I wish it stays away.

If anyone I know. anyone of those friends come across this post, you might not know it's you and there are a couple of people that I didn't mention, I just want to tell all of you that I am sorry I might not have been the friend you wanted. I want you all to know that I really did fight in every single Friendship (except the first three). I loved each of you so much that leaving you broke me. I am sorry for every saying anything that hurt you. I promise I never wanted to say or do anything to hurt or annoy you. When any of you text me I feel so great like life has come back to me. I hope that whatever and wherever you are, you are Happy and not lonely.
If I ever come back to read this post, I want me to know that It's okay. That you are okay. You might not be the best at anything, you might not ever have that friend you want but you have you forever. Make you so great that you don't need anyone else.

Brain Dump 1

"You can't be everything for someone just as someone can't be everything to you."

"It's the expectation that someone can be everything to you that kills the relationship"
Now what? where do I go from here?

"Is it unhealthy to spend so much time with someone?"

I constantly ask myself why I needed a break from my friends. it scares me. why is it that every time I get close to someone, I push them away? Is it because I spend so much time with them? Is there something wrong with me? Am I mean for not enjoying every second of my time with people?
Am I selfish for stepping back? Is that what happened with Friend 7?
I mean, it seems true to me. Every time I spend so much time with someone something happens.
But does that mean it's unhealthy? or are they just not the right people?

"You shouldn't uproot your life to spend time with someone"

That is exactly what I constantly do. I shouldn't. Or should I? I don't know anything anymore.

Care less

Friendship is like a rope

Each friend is holding one side

If one side lets go or looks like they will let go or loosen their grip, the other person would have to do the same for stupidity would be holding that rope while no is on the other side.

I will act stupidly then.

I will keep holding that rope. 

Like always

But

I am tired.

I am hurt.

And yet I won’t let go now.

But Ik at some point I will be too hurt, too tired, The rope will fall out of my hand.

I will feel even worse.

I will blame myself.

But my dear self,please don’t.

Stop blaming yourself.

What can u do when u r holding the rope and seeing the other side loosen their grip? U tell them to pay attention. They pull for a while. Then they loosen their grip.

Shall u speak up again? Or shall u let the events happen as they will?

Or shall u drop your side and get out of this without hurting any further?

But u will hurt later. 

U will to be blamed.

No u shall hurt yourself than hurt them.

U shall bear the pain.

My dear self, stay strong.

My dear self, I promise u what is meant to be will be.

I promise u u will be fine.

Ik it hurts.

Ik it hurts really bad.

But I don’t think u should let go yet.

But it hurts so much.

I am pushing myself too much.

I can’t afford to break again. 

Then don’t break my dear self.

Why can’t I not care so much.

Just let whoever do whatever.

I see no way out of this but for u my dear self to care less.

The less u care the less u will be hurt, the less likely u will break

But how do I care less?

Please help me

How do I care less?

Be brave: pull away, stay away

The question is can I stop?

Ik it will eventually happen

But we don’t stop living because we know death is coming

But we do things while living to prepare for death

Then, what things should I do to prepare for this?

Should I learn to be quiet?

Should I continue sharing?

Should I push away?

Or enjoy the last few moments?

Isn’t it less painful if I pull away instead of the other way around?

It’s less painful to me

Or is it?

I can’t see the pain in people

Especially if it’s something I did

But the question here is if Learned anything

They don’t care

They would hurt me and never look back

They would leave me and it hurts so bad

Sometimes it isn’t what someone did

It’s how it related to what happened before

I know this action

To pretend to be strangers

And I hate it

Why should it be so complicated

Can’t two people just be friends and stay friends?

Or maybe I am just one of those people who is meant to be friendless

Maybe that’s why nothing works out

I am not giving up

I will even slowly back away

It will be painful

It will be bad

But instead of them pulling away all the way suddenly and stabbing me

I’d rather slowly stab myself 

I’d rather have time to speak to myself through it

Nothing is wrong with me

I was just born in with the wrong generation

Now the question is do I want to stop after all these conclusions?

keep your guard up

Ever feel like u belong but u don’t belong 

Ever feel like really scared of losing friends constantly?

Ever feel like u just can’t take it anymore

Ever feel like a useless person

Ever feel like optimistic but pessimistic

Ever feel like things will be alright

It’s like you love too much

You value too much

That there comes a point when you realize the others don’t hold u in that same way

And u feel stupid for loving someone too much

U feel stupid for being too attached

And it’s even worse that it keeps happening over and over again

It’s as if you will never meet someone who loved u as much

And it’s sad

But it’s even sadder that u have to constantly remind yourself to not be too attached

To not love the people around u that much

To keep your distance

To hold back

To not say everything

To keep your guard up

Cause whenever it drops

You’ll feel stupid again

Today is Tomorrow

I have always read 

“live this day like it’s your last”

 and I never followed that

More like I forget to follow it anyway

Ever been at risk of sth really big really bad?

And not dreading the moment it happens because it might never happen but thinking about the days before it happens?

I look at each day at a time

What did I do today?

Did I really live it?

Or was it just some annoying day I am counting down to reach another day?

Countdown to college

Countdown to meeting people

Countdown to go going to the cinema

What about today?

Do I have anything to do today? 

Is there anything that interests me in today?

But then that raises another question if I didn’t spend my days counting down and working for other days am I even  going to enjoy the  days I am counting for? Am I going to get to those days if I don’t work to get there?

Is there something as live each day like it’s your last when you do not care for this day but the coming day? 

What if there is a constant reminder that one day I may not be able to live the days at all? Does that force me to try and enjoy each day even if it was just a countdown for another?

What I told myself at one point during this fight

It’s not about winning now It is not about this now It is not about now This is just a stepping stone A stepping stone You guessed it It was your first time There was your first time You do not need this You are fine You are perfect You are doing great
This must have happened for a reason A really important reason You just do not know it now Be patient Be strong
Be courageous
DREAMS DO COME TRUE

Book Suggestions

Good Day 

Here are some BS but do not forget to comment your favorite  and
if you have another BS.

• Matched Trilogy
• Divergent Trilogy
• The Hunger Games Trilogy
• Hush, Hush Trilogy
• Shatter Me Trilogy
• Percy Jackson series
• The vampire academy
• A House of Night Series
• Nightmare Academy Trilogy
• The Fault in our Stars
• Wonder
• An Abundance of Katherines
• The Alchemist series
• Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children
• Paper Towns
• Before I go to Sleep
• I’ve got your Number
• The Book Thief
• Don’t you Forget about Me
• The Perks of being a Wallflower
• The Infernal Devices
• The Morganville Vampires series
• The Mortal Instruments series
• Fangirl
• Eleanor and Park
• The Knife of Never letting go
• Legend
• I am the Messanger
• Landline
• A Tale of Two Cities
• The Maze Runner
• The Great Gatsby
• To kill a mockingbird
• Harry Potter Series
• The Cane Chronicles
• The Catcher in the rye
• The Hobbit
• If I stay and Where she went
• The First Phone Call from Heaven
• Slated Trilogy
• The Infernal Devices
• The Mortal Instruments

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After all, How different could we be?

The Clouds Do not own the sky.

I was confident.

I was okay.

I was starting to see the end of the tunnel. the light. the sun.

Then it was dark.

The pain in my head was so much to bear.

I felt the urge to cry.

1 time. then a 2nd. then a 3rd.

I didn't give in.

For all I thought was: What good could crying be now?

I used to cry before. 

And it only made me feel worse. more lost. more unsure.

I swallowed my tears.

I asked myself why did I suddenly go blind?

I couldn't form an answer.

I thought about speaking to my bestie.

But I didn't want to overwhelm her.

And I didn't want to always speak to her every single time I am feeling down.

So I pretended I am speaking to her.

"Mom I am not feeling okay, again. I was feeling okay, but suddenly I was blinded. I am now lost in desperation. Not sure what to do."

she said," why are you feeling like that?"

I say,"I had a hope, a plan and it was crushed. It was said it isn't adequate to get me where I want.I was so sure it would work that now that it is said to not be so is as if I was blindfolded. "

I imagine her saying," You are well enough to figure things out. You are smart enough that this plan was not necessary but complementary. Why are you worrying about the future so much? Rest and tomorrow you will see how the future unfolds. Your worry will do no more than becoming a weight too heavy to hold, so let it go."

And thus I was restored. 

But the pain in my head continued. 

I decided it will not stop me.

It hurts beyond anything words could portray.

Nevertheless, I am fighting on.

Struggling in the dark. 

Not giving up.

Not giving in to worry and fear.

I open my eyes and here I am seeing the light.

kind of unsure where to step.

But I see the light.

I learned that it was a dream.

A dream in my conscious mind.

It was more like an illusion.

I wasn't really blindfolded.

But it seemed so true.

The pain is still persisting as a proof.

I learned that sometimes we feel sad, or mad for no reason.

All it takes is for us to step back and think things over.

It will seem so real.

But now You know.

The antidote that will make you carry on.

step back. Speak. scream. Express.

Be honest with yourself.

And you will see the blindfold fade as a cloud passing in front of a blazing sun.

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List of inspiring songs

• Hold on by extreme music
• Unstoppable from Ballerina(which is a great inspiring movie as well)
• You know it is about you from Ballerina
• Sia suitcase
• Dead hearts by stars(it isn't inspiring exactly but do listen to it)

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Adults: When will they grow up?

                   

Sandeep, meanwhile has come to the conclusion that the grown-ups were mead, each after his or her own fashion. Simple situations were turned into complex, dramtic ones; not until then did everyone feel important and happy. Will they never grow up?

When I was younger, I used to look at adults and think" they are so old, mature, and composed" .
But each year I grew older and understood how false this is. EVERYONE has a part of their smaller self inside them. locked up. appearing only on some instances. It turns out adults weren't really adults.

They will deny it. They will pretend it isn't true. But deep inside the truth shines. They need care. They need love. They need to satisfy their younger locked up selves through any means possible.

The result? A world full of immature people. Pretending ever small thing is so important. Being so meticulous in noticing every move, every eye twitch. Simple situations are turned into large problems that last for years.  

Maybe I exaggerated just a bit(not that much).
DO NOT BELIEVE ME? look around you at all these adults and their interactions.

And I came to the same conclusion Sandeep came to: When will they grow up? 

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Are you ready to give up?

I can see hope.
Even though along the way, I felt lost.
 I was ready to give up.
 Now I am glad I didn't.
I thought I was going nowhere.
After all, it was so dark.
I couldn't see if I was going the right way.
No one could help me through it.
I didn't find any clue.
How good does it feel to find hope?
I feel like I should dance on the clouds.
I should run screaming around.
Is this enough to show you how desperate I was?
I didn't even get where I want.
But today an ever so small bulb lit my way.


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Some inspiring, positive quotes I like

(do you know all of them?let me know in the comments below. Share the quote you like in the comments too.)

If there is a will there is a way.

Today I will do what no one is doing, so tomorrow I can achieve what no one can.

The race is not for the swift, but for those who keep running.

When you want to succeed as bad as you want to breathe, then you will be successful. 

 Trust yourself.

I am looking for the extra in the ordinary. 

Everyday you will not work someone else will and he will get ahead of you.DO NOT let anyone work harder than you.

Pressure creates diamonds. 

Light it up and let it go. Don't you see that you are not alone? Light it up and watch it fly cause you could go anywhere you want tonight!

Do you want to be a person who fears failure or a person who loves success?

 Never give up. 

You never know what tomorrow will bring.

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Desprate tears or are they?

Tears spill from my eyes.
I wonder how can I be stressed without wanting to be, without knowing I am.  But I break down and cry. Acne consumes my face. They tell me it's stress.
But not now. Not today. Maybe it never was stress.
I wipe away the tears but they are too much my face stays wet for a while.
The thought hits me hard. I am not stressed. I am desperate.
You know how when you want something so bad and keep working for it and just as you are starting to feel you will reach it. you take a step toward it. You can see it clearly. Then everything turns black. Hopes shattered.

I HAVE NEVER WANTED ANYTHING THAT BAD.
yet.....
Every time I think I am getting closer as if someone suddenly adjusts a lens and I am actually farther away.
and I cry.
Not out of stress, but out of desperation.
I know I will get there. I can feel it deep in my soul. Engraved in my heart.
But then, why am I crying?
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The mask that falls

Suddenly you become friends with somebody.
You become friends for 2 years or so. You know the person so much you know how they would respond to anything, you know what they like and what they do not, you know the decisions he or she is going to make about anything.
Then suddenly and as if a mask falls you find the person you knew so much to be someone else.
How?
How can you be fooled for years?
It seems so real.
How can they not be who you thought they were?
For 2 years? How come?
Who are they?
Are they who you thought they were or were they fooling you all the time?
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My reason for why you shouldn't call someone fat

Why do you do it?
Calling people fat?
Does it please you?
Does it make you feel better about yourself?
Whatever it is! BE MORE CONSIDERATE OF WHAT THAT OTHER PERSON WOULD FEEL please!
Let me tell you this that person either doesn't care or that issue is already annoying them.
So can we please not Call anyone fat anymore?
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Do not get too caught up with life

Be passionate
Be successful
Work hard
Do not give up
But do not forget to be happy
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A list of simple acts of kindness

In my previous post, I have written about what success means to me.Press here to have a look at that.
So according to that, I decided to write this list so that everyone would try to attempt a few every day and over time, it might even become a habit.
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Let's just get to the list
1) hold the door open for someone (just make sure you are not forced to hold the door for 5 minutes)

2)if someone looks like they need help ask them or better yet just give them a hand
Even if you just ask him or her if he or she needs help, you have no idea how much happier you make that person feel about the world
Quick anecdote
I was going home after school and I had a pile of books in a huge bag in my hand.We had an activity and unsurprisingly My part had sth to do with books. Anyway, the books were too heavy but that wasn't the issue. The books kept sliding off each other and adding width the bag and then a guy actually asked me if I need help. In fact, he was stepping in to help me I just refused cause I go home walking and he probably needs to go home so well I just had to deal with my own mess. In those days you do not find such a person. I never had a chance to truly say thank you .......

3)smile when someone looks at you
It makes people feel better about themselves and will make you feel better.
I know this one from experience. It makes wonders!

4)Always ask if how someone is feeling.
Let's say you and someone are walking toward the same destination side by side why don't you ask "how are you doing today?"
You probably do not care even if that person is a stranger but well again it makes that person feel better and this is really what the whole post is about.

Well, these are the ones I could currently think of.
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What success means to me.

It is very common that a girl my age gets asked what she wants to do in the future. A year ago I had a definitive answer: a psychiatrist. I wanted to help people emotionally, Kids, teenagers, adults, everyone. But then I wanted to do more. I wanted success.

Success to me is a peaceful world. A World where EVERYONE has a chance. A chance to eat, to work, to get educated, to get what he or she wants, a chance TO LIVE. A World where there is no discrimination and injustice. A World where people are not scared to live in. A World where people can be happy.

A World where people work together not against each other. A World where people from the same country are not killing each other for power or any other reason.A world where schools, hospitals, and airports are not bombed EVERYDAY SOMEWHERE IN THE WORLD. A World where people are helping each not working to destroy each other.  A World where when there is a country in war other countries interfere to stop this war not do what is in the interfering country's favor. 

A World where people do not have so much hatred toward each other. A World where people do not have so much jealousy toward each other. A World where people are not constantly working to break each other apart, but to help each other stand up.A World where people do not constantly criticize each other.

A World where children are not killed. A World where little girls are not raped. A World where children are safe.A World where children are not thrown into orphanages because of some conspiracy on the country or their parents. A World where teenagers are not forced by society to be up to some standard.A World where teenagers are forced to put up with so much. A World where adults are not experiencing the pain of losing their children to some disease or attack. A World where adults are not taken away from their children because of some debt. A World without so much innocent peoples' death because of chemicals, suicide, carelessness, and injustice.

This is what success is: A World in peace. A World where people CAN LIVE IN. 

The first step is really a request. 

I wish everyone would start helping the people around them

Do little acts of kindness

and the rest shall come gradually.

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A picture full of stars check it out before you read this short post, please.
My message is not just because that star shined so much brighter than the other means it's in a higher position. Actually, these "dim" ones are so much higher.
Think about it. There is this person in life who looks so superior but actually isn't. It's those silent people who have the wildest minds.
This observation of the stars is open to different interpretations. Comment yours down below
Relate to your life.
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The Giver-Book review

Hello
How are you?
I finally had a chance to read The Giver.
The ending (no spoilers)
I am going to start with how I felt about the ending: I liked it but didn't like it. Know how that feels. It was a happy ending, but I wanted more. I feel like it ended suddenly.
Overall
Overall the book was one of the most beautiful literary work I have read. There are so many underlying messages; it's so deep. I loved it!
Th language is easy. I didn't feel bored reading any part of it. The fact that the book is so tiny and contains that much wisdom makes it so interesting.
Do I recommend it?
Definitely!
Rating (1-5)
3
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Peace of mind

Someday in life, you will feel like enough is enough.
You no longer want all this pain.
You don't want to struggle that much.
It takes courage... More courage than you think to move on.
To cut out those once very close people from your life.
People who make it all harder.
You will only want to move forward.
You might want it all but most of the time you need "the push"
My push was what she said.
It was all over to me the moment I  read what she wrote.
I would rather stay all alone than going back to what was happening.
I was never more glad to leave anyone than I am now.
Yes, it scares me this iced feelings of mine...
But I need not worry that much ...am still me with that soft heart am just hiding it from
People
hiding it from all the pain.

That is all it takes to have peace of mind
Leave all that pains you
Leave all that makes it harder
Leave it all behind you
And don't you dare
(Yes am writing this one more about myself than anyone else)
Don't ever dare look back
Cuz it isn't even worth that
It was all fake
It was all nothing
They never understood what was going on with you
They never truly cared
My!they might have never really been your friend

Learn about my blog before pressing the follow button on the right.
I am a book lover.
My posts are inspired by my life.
My blog is not only about books it's about the life of a book lover...Me.
You will probably find A LOT of things you could relate to.
After all, How different could we be?